Hmmm...

today was SO boring. i was supposed to go to the mall with my mom, but i'm kinda glad i didn't cuz i'm broke until Monday and i hate going to the mall with little or no cash! it sucks cuz i always see something i want and i can't get it. so i ended up doing nothing today. eric got off work early and said he was going to James (ugh i hate him) house to watch the dvd's they bought in Long Beach, but i could have sworn that James didn't have a dvd player...but now all of a sudden he tells me that Albert stopped by and GAVE James a dvd player. i was like ok wtf would Albert (their other "friend" who has not spoken to them in months) just go to James house outta the blue and give him a dvd player? he said he didn't know but i was like whatever it sounded like a damn lie to me, and it probably was. they are probably going to someone else's house. eric has a habit of lying when it would be so much easier for him to just tell the truth so now its hard for me to believe the things he says. so who knows where he goes when he doesn't take me along. i can't always sit at home worrying about it, can i? it bugs me, cuz i HATE James and i don't think he is too fond of me either. i'm sure he'd like nothing better than for me and eric to split up, so i don't trust him around eric. but whatever i'm not his mother just his wife and i won't try to tell him who to be friends with. if he likes being friends with weirdos then more power to him. i don't like it but i won't try to run his life. its just always in the back of my mind if he still calls Maritza even though he SAYS he doesn't...i always wonder and wonder if he ever talks to her when he is with his friends since he can't talk to her here...he says he doesn't but like i said he has a habit of lying sometimes. well i dunno i guess i will just have to see what time he gets home to try and determine where exactly he was. i guess i'll write more about my strange paranoia tomorrow.