Ugh

today sucked! my neck hurts from working out, i dunno why! but its hurting pretty bad (yea, i went to the gym today. i've lost 3 pounds and still feelin' like a hippo!) takes time, i know...the place where i bought my car is totally trying to rip me off. they made me pay an extra $50 something for a "late fee" but my payment is only like 2 days late. they are so anal its getting on my nerves. they know i can't make my payments on saturday if i get PAID saturday, i can't mail it in time! and they refuse to change the days its due...but then get mad when the payment is late! its like HELLO are u retarded? are u get paid to be a moron? i hate these ppl and i can't wait til we finish paying this stupid car. i've been talking to my mom alot lately about my real dad and what he was like...i always wondered what my grandparents were like (they died a while back)and if i looked like either of them. i just want to know more about my background and stuff, cuz right now i don't know much. i am sick of ppl always trying to make me feel bad about being mixed. i can't help it. its how i was born and theres nothing i can do to change it. i don't mind it at all myself. i never wished i was full white or full black, i like being a little of both! its cool to me but i guess to some ppl, they think i need to "choose" what i want to be...well i can't, i am what i am and thats all i can be... all i know is my mom is half white nad half black, and so is my dad...i'd like to know more about him, but i have to find him first! and since my stepdad has been standing in the way of that in the past cuz i was too young to decide, i've decided to try and see him. i haven't seen him in 21 years but...oh well! and i found out today the Black Eyed Peas are definitely playing on Satuday, and since eric insists on driving his lazy ass friend to HIS grandpa's funeral, i'm gonna miss them!! its like why can't he just tell his friend to take his own car?? its like he's afraid to make him mad at him or something. we paid $54 for this event and i don't wanna miss a day of it to drive his friend all around. i mean its his family thing, his grandpa died, why doesn't he go to the funeral and be with his family? no, he'd rather have eric drive him there so he doesn't have to, then drive BACK to long beach and take him BACK home again. and instead of staying with his family he is more worried about being in Long Beach. he has SO much sympathy and compassion, huh? and eric is just falling for his little plan. he doesn't want to do all that driving, so he'll ask eric to do it knowing eric is such a pushover and will do ANYTHING his friends ask! it makes me mad cuz its like what i say about it doesn't even matter cuz his friend really needs him. even though I PAID $54 for those damn even tickets and I am going to miss a day of the event to drive his friend to a funeral. i told him i would rather us wait for his friend in Long Beach, but NOOOO it doesn't matter what i want cuz his best friend James needs him. whatever. i'm so sick of competing with his friends. i wish he would get some balls and JUST SAY NO. ne way i'm getting worked up about it so i'm gonna go now.